Haanism

Last year, I had a post "Last in 2006". This year, I was wondering if I'm gonna do the same.

However, I know there is something going on in my mind, while I flipped through the old newspaper features of Sin Chew Jit Poh. Eventually, I finished scanning the whole big stack of collected newspapers. This is one of the things I'd like to get done by the end of 2007.

The next thing is to sort out the brochures/maps/booklets/papers I got before and during my trip to China, Hong Kong and Macau.


Talking about the trip, I think that's my best accomplishment in the year 2007, and I'd like to thank Feng and Wooi Yee for accompanying (Pei Shuen & Kai Lung as well). Sometimes I find it unbelievable that 4 months have passed after the trip. In the 4 months, lotsa things in my life have encountered big twists, and I've gone through uncountable mood swings.

From being treasured, pampered and loved, suddenly I became just an ordinary someone, who is too much to be seen.

Had an "official" birthday celebration in the office, for the first time, with the people I like, but with the most dilemma ever.

I left my dearest colleagues to a new job.

From being anxious of how I couldn't retain my rationality and independence, finally I'm back to the original me.

Writing extensively is one of the many ways out for me, as it switches my negative attention from the inappropriate focus. More importantly, it lets me know that I was not wrong going for the one-month trip.

Oh yeah, I've also got the chances to know our country better by visiting Sungai Lembing, Malacca, Fraser's Hill, Taiping and Cherating. Thanks to those who went to these places with me.

Last night, I checked through the small book with calendar planner, which I used throughout the year to record a lot of things. It is always carried together whenever I go. Recently, I obviously find that it's insufficient for my use anymore, as a lot of spaces have been filled, and there is nothing about 2008. Therefore, I've got myself another one for the new year, and I checked if any info recorded is to be "carried forward" to the new book.

Again, the feeling of "time passes swiftly" sneaked out, and I was a little stunned.


Yesterday, I read the following (original version is in Chinese):

Life is a continual growth. It's like a river, keeps flowing regardless of any barrier, and finally reaches the sea. There is no "must" in our life, but we have a direction - to look at the present optimistically and positively. We grow by confronting with despair. From there, we learn, root stronger and continue moving forward.

Today, I re-read the newsletters by Andrew Matthews:

Why Think Positive?

When things go wrong, remember:

It's not WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU that matters most.
It's how YOU THINK ABOUT what happens to you …

When you fight life, life always wins!

Once we change our thoughts about "a bad situation", we can take advantage of it.
You already know this!

Life's great opportunities mostly arrive disguised as misfortune and disaster.

EXAMPLE:
Imagine two women, Mary and Jane.
Both get divorced.
Mary says, "I've failed. My life is over."
Jane says, "My life has just begun!"
Who will blossom?

IN A NUTSHELL

Every "disaster" in your life is not so much a disaster, as a situation waiting for you to change your mind about it.

In the year 2007, I've gone through different gains and losses. Although sometimes I wish some of them have never happened, I then tell myself, just take them as lessons, at least I've learnt something. It's better than living in comfort, and when someday we think back, we could recall nothing.

Let bygones be bygones.

I believe I've also done something wrong to others, and I hope they can forgive me. I always try to kick the ass of hatred out of my place, but occasionally I just can't do it too well.

Where do we get the idea that if WE don't forgive people, THEY suffer? It's nuts!

To forgive someone, you don't have to agree with what they did. You just have to want your life to work.

IN A NUTSHELL

Is it easy? Usually not. But you don't forgive people for their benefit. You do it for your benefit.

~ Andrew Matthews

I do have some wishes for 2008, but I'd choose to keep them in mind. Sometimes the reality and imagination are just too far apart. I opt for more flexibility this time :)

Will not have time to blog tomorrow, for the last piece in 2007.

Happy New Year to my readers. I sincerely hope for a greater improvement, and wish you are still with me, in the coming year.

Added on 31/12/2007: I woke up today and felt energetic. I'm the kind always looking for new start. Why? Perhaps I have a dirty past? Whatever. I like it when I'm jubilant.