Again, I wish to write something, which might cause someone asking me the following:
The REALIZATION here means coming to understand something clearly and distinctly, NOT the making or being made real of something imagined, planned.
I slept around 10-11pm every night this week (kinda unbelievable). I could still post something almost everyday coz those were written previously and saved as drafts, just pending to be published.
This whole week, I'm having non-stop and not-known-why hiccups. I've got such problems on and off in the past, but I never had the motivation to go find out the reason. Someone told me, it might be a gastric problem, but I never took her advice to go see a doctor.
Few days ago, I finally went to a clinic. The medicine was of not much help to me, together with my "additional effort" to cut down anything with caffeine. It's the kind of hiccup which you could feel there's lot of air in the stomach.
Therefore, I went to a traditional doctor last night. He told me, there are 2 possibilities:
1) I ate something wrongly
2) I'm very pressured
For the 1st item - I already do not eat much due to allergy. People used to tease me that my meals are too plain or even tasteless. Anything oily is very unlikely. Sometimes I take coffee/tea to keep myself away from sleepiness, but that's limited to 1 cup per day.
Regarding the 2nd item - I do not actually know if I'm pressured.
I took a test in Facebook on 18 March 2008, and the result is as follows:
I disregard the test result, coz I feel it cannot be considered as a pressure when we are doing something which we are glad with, though there might be some time constraints or deadlines and we need to speed ourselves up.
For example, I spend time to blog, play badminton, meet friends, read books, do some freelance writing tasks, go to work everyday... all these should not cause any pressure on me, coz I enjoy doing these.
However, I notice something lately - I cannot sleep well every Sunday night, regardless of whether I'm at hometown (have to wake up early at around 5am+ the next day) or in Seri Kembangan (can wake up as usual around 7am+).
Sometimes, when there were a lot of to-dos, I couldn't sleep too. I ended up waking up early to clear some of the tasks, then I felt better. Those tasks were actually not urgent, but I was afraid that I might forget if they were not done immediately.
Last weekend, when I re-arranged my newspapers collection, I found that before coming back to Malaysia, I set some targets to be accomplished. One of the many is to get a scuba-diving license, then I can dive at the beautiful Great Barrier Reef, when I go to Australia again. There are some other places in South East Asia I wish to visit too. I kept those information for "future" reference but I've not had the chance to realize much of these dreams.
Suddenly, I again felt, time is too limited. I have so many wish-to-dos, but there are lot more need-to-dos in life, such as to work, learn more (so that I can become steadier) and also to earn money to fulfill my so-called DREAMS.
At work, to be honest, it's sometimes quite stressful. Now I'm undergoing all the "challenges" foreseen before accepting the job offer. I'm not going to detail everything here, but I hope I can get through all barriers and steepness, sooner or later.
Read from newspaper last night that pure hard work is sometimes not right. We cannot just work, work and work non-stop. Occasionally, we should take a rest, sharpen the saw, and the outcome might be better than someone who never stop working, thus having no chance to sharpen the saw.
Horoscope says that it's time for me to knuckle down recently. Even there are cruise-y moments, they are not gonna last long.
I trust the horoscope prediction, whilst hoping I'm busy in a smart way.
Being pressured or not, does that still matter?
Are you really busy at work, making your posts reveal so much realization you got from work?
The REALIZATION here means coming to understand something clearly and distinctly, NOT the making or being made real of something imagined, planned.
I slept around 10-11pm every night this week (kinda unbelievable). I could still post something almost everyday coz those were written previously and saved as drafts, just pending to be published.
Images taken at the Soekarno-Hatta Airport, Jakarta.
This whole week, I'm having non-stop and not-known-why hiccups. I've got such problems on and off in the past, but I never had the motivation to go find out the reason. Someone told me, it might be a gastric problem, but I never took her advice to go see a doctor.
Few days ago, I finally went to a clinic. The medicine was of not much help to me, together with my "additional effort" to cut down anything with caffeine. It's the kind of hiccup which you could feel there's lot of air in the stomach.
Therefore, I went to a traditional doctor last night. He told me, there are 2 possibilities:
1) I ate something wrongly
2) I'm very pressured
For the 1st item - I already do not eat much due to allergy. People used to tease me that my meals are too plain or even tasteless. Anything oily is very unlikely. Sometimes I take coffee/tea to keep myself away from sleepiness, but that's limited to 1 cup per day.
Regarding the 2nd item - I do not actually know if I'm pressured.
I took a test in Facebook on 18 March 2008, and the result is as follows:
I disregard the test result, coz I feel it cannot be considered as a pressure when we are doing something which we are glad with, though there might be some time constraints or deadlines and we need to speed ourselves up.
For example, I spend time to blog, play badminton, meet friends, read books, do some freelance writing tasks, go to work everyday... all these should not cause any pressure on me, coz I enjoy doing these.
However, I notice something lately - I cannot sleep well every Sunday night, regardless of whether I'm at hometown (have to wake up early at around 5am+ the next day) or in Seri Kembangan (can wake up as usual around 7am+).
Sometimes, when there were a lot of to-dos, I couldn't sleep too. I ended up waking up early to clear some of the tasks, then I felt better. Those tasks were actually not urgent, but I was afraid that I might forget if they were not done immediately.
Last weekend, when I re-arranged my newspapers collection, I found that before coming back to Malaysia, I set some targets to be accomplished. One of the many is to get a scuba-diving license, then I can dive at the beautiful Great Barrier Reef, when I go to Australia again. There are some other places in South East Asia I wish to visit too. I kept those information for "future" reference but I've not had the chance to realize much of these dreams.
Suddenly, I again felt, time is too limited. I have so many wish-to-dos, but there are lot more need-to-dos in life, such as to work, learn more (so that I can become steadier) and also to earn money to fulfill my so-called DREAMS.
At work, to be honest, it's sometimes quite stressful. Now I'm undergoing all the "challenges" foreseen before accepting the job offer. I'm not going to detail everything here, but I hope I can get through all barriers and steepness, sooner or later.
Read from newspaper last night that pure hard work is sometimes not right. We cannot just work, work and work non-stop. Occasionally, we should take a rest, sharpen the saw, and the outcome might be better than someone who never stop working, thus having no chance to sharpen the saw.
Horoscope says that it's time for me to knuckle down recently. Even there are cruise-y moments, they are not gonna last long.
I trust the horoscope prediction, whilst hoping I'm busy in a smart way.
Being pressured or not, does that still matter?
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"Suddenly, I again felt, time is too limited. I have so many wish-to-dos, but there are lot more need-to-dos in life, such as to work, learn more (so that I can become steadier) and also to earn money to fulfill my so-called DREAMS." From this sentence, I can actually sense your stress. Sometimes, 旁观者清.
You're pushing the envelope, which is a good thing, just growing pain, really. The syndrome is simply the collision of your 'carefree' id and 'prove it' ego.
I can contribute sth to your 'darkroom and music' medicine - 'Cafe Del Mar' music. it's good for listen before your sleep, imagine in the dark that u r at the beach, after dive, looking at sunset sipping coolada (i.e. the image of 'Cafe Del Mar')
Cheers!
压力，是来自生活，不管是工作还是做自己感兴趣的事。有些人觉得工作压力大，所以没工作时就忙着去玩、旅行、找朋友…一大堆的节目，以为可以抒解压力。哪知道忙工作、忙做自己感兴趣/高兴的事，结果心里的那条线越来越紧，某天断了，出问题了都还搞不清楚是怎么回事。当我们能无所事事、什么都不做一两天，也不会觉得不安、罪恶感，才是真正的抒解压力啊。
佳霖，你心水总是很清。我似乎就是不能不有罪恶感。好像今天，老板打了电话来，他的依妹儿还没抵达时，我还可以逍遥一下。一旦收到他的简讯说依妹儿寄出了，我就开始紧张。要赶快冲凉、赶快做被吩咐的。做着时，也怕他快上线了，我还没有弄完，等等等等。
幸好，他上线的时候，我已经＂暂时＂完成，可以有个交代。寄回给他继续了，我还在一直检查，看自己有没有做错什么。惨，久而久之不懂会有什么结果。可能我越来越厉害（赶上他的脚步），可能我越来越精神紧张。
我们就等着瞧吧！
push the envelope = 把飛機開到極速
learned a new word today, yeah! sam, normally i'm tired till having no energy to do anything else, except switching off the light and laptop.
jam, thanks for telling the saddening fact :(
from your post, i think you are lack of confident for what you do. you are so worry that you can do it or not.
besides you are ambitions people but too much ambitions also no good.
thats what i see from your post. :)
活在当下is what i wanna say to you.
coolku, sometimes it depends on who you are working with. normally the very smart (and fast-paced) people are impatient, although they don't really mean to be so.
since i tried to do things fast, i'm worried i made mistakes when wanting to be fast.. i'm not sure if i'm ambitious, but i just try to do my best... coz... i'm a virgo... have the perfectionist characteristic..
涵，感同身受。
以前只是写Edge daily的新闻，因为是日报，新闻不用太长、不用太深入探讨一些issues。现在除了写日报，还要写长篇的features给Edge weekly。每个星期五晚上交了稿，我就从星期五晚上到星期天晚上都睡不好。一直很怕很担心有读者打电话来批评我乱乱写。（我一些同事曾遇到这些状况）
很怕做不好、很怕做不对、很怕做得不够快。压力。不懂要怎样。
kun, 哈哈哈，你用错成语了。我那天才从星洲看到一样的纠正。
感同身受，不能用来表达大家的感受一样、相似。那是在你很感谢某个人的时候用的。我今完回家查字典，把正确的意思跟你说。怕我自己越描越黑！
感同身受：感激的心情如同亲身受到（恩惠），也泛指给人带来麻烦，自己也能亲身感受到。多用来代替别人表示谢意。
I guess we are the same kind as in once we set the to-do list, we always wanted to accomplish it as soon possible regardless of the practicality. Do learn to set up smaller milestones, and longer term planning. That's what I always remind myself of it.
不懂咧……我以为可以这样用。不过你这样一说，我就上网查查看。原来网上也有很多人讨论这个成语的用法。这是其中一个。
或许佳霖老师可以帮我们解一解这个难题。
我比较没有什么批判性，报纸字典怎么说我就这样吸收。很多用词，原本不是这样的，但经过人们刻意或非刻意的扭转，就变成了另一个样。对于这些＂新生＂，也不懂应该接受还是纠正。
bewitched, i'm very happy to find you out "here". not wish we are purely linked via facebook :)
Wow, amazing, you can write such long post.
Ya I believe compartmentalization, I very anti working after working hours. Don't even think of asking that, else you will get monkey jobs from me.
hi mysurface, whether to clearly distinguish between work and life, it depends on whether i like my work, and whether my boss appreciates it. honestly, for now, i dun mind to work anytime.
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