Something is Wrong
First of all, I really don't know what happens to me lately.
Remember well that I used to tell Kun, I never lack of topic to blog, and what I always face is, I've got too much to write. So, the posting needs to be scheduled, coz I don't wanna bombard my site visitors with too frequent updates.
This could be a kind of pressure, when there are lots of unread posts in the Reader.
Now, I don't have anything to write, or any photos to share. It's definitely a SAD thing.
Was having some UNEXPLAINABLE feelings when I was:
I seem to be having a strong urge to go Sipadan (or Mabul or Semporna). I'm feeling I have not much time left already, so instead of going to many small places, maybe I should just focus on a great one - reducing the $$, time and energy to be consumed.
Apart from this year end, maybe I can make another trip during CNY next year. But as we all know, the tickets during festive season are so expensive. And I also hesitate if I should leave home during CNY.
Sometimes, I know clearly that I work to get moolah to satisfy my travel needs (yes, is a need). But occasionally I also wonder why I'm so hesitant to get leaves and go away. I'm the one always telling others, we are not so important, the company can still operate well without us, right?
It's easier to say than do, I think.
Or.. it's not a matter of hard to do. It's actually coz I wish to use the limited time to do/learn more from my work. There is a point of dilemma.
Just now, I tidied up the maps, leaflets and tickets we got from our summer trip in 2007. So much memories were recalled, which I hope so much to have again.
Last Friday, I reckon it was the first time I totally forgot about my DSLR. Normally I'd think for few seconds whether to bring it back to hometown. This week, it was entirely out of my mind. Although I discover a nice spot to snap paddy fields from an aerial view today, I had nothing in hand.
In September, I was thinking to get myself a new lens, but then there was something that hold me back too.
I'm really having something wrong with myself, but I don't know what is missing.
Before I say Hanoi, I'm coming, is there any possibility for another trip? I want something new - environment, people, experience.
I'm feeling lost when I do not get lost at somewhere new.
Remember well that I used to tell Kun, I never lack of topic to blog, and what I always face is, I've got too much to write. So, the posting needs to be scheduled, coz I don't wanna bombard my site visitors with too frequent updates.
This could be a kind of pressure, when there are lots of unread posts in the Reader.
Now, I don't have anything to write, or any photos to share. It's definitely a SAD thing.
Was having some UNEXPLAINABLE feelings when I was:
- being asked to join a trip
- knowing that my diving mates have done their Advanced Open Water Dive at Tioman, in September
- being asked if to join another diving trip
- seeing all the beautiful photos captured by others
- reading others' travelogues
I seem to be having a strong urge to go Sipadan (or Mabul or Semporna). I'm feeling I have not much time left already, so instead of going to many small places, maybe I should just focus on a great one - reducing the $$, time and energy to be consumed.
Apart from this year end, maybe I can make another trip during CNY next year. But as we all know, the tickets during festive season are so expensive. And I also hesitate if I should leave home during CNY.
Sometimes, I know clearly that I work to get moolah to satisfy my travel needs (yes, is a need). But occasionally I also wonder why I'm so hesitant to get leaves and go away. I'm the one always telling others, we are not so important, the company can still operate well without us, right?
It's easier to say than do, I think.
Or.. it's not a matter of hard to do. It's actually coz I wish to use the limited time to do/learn more from my work. There is a point of dilemma.
Just now, I tidied up the maps, leaflets and tickets we got from our summer trip in 2007. So much memories were recalled, which I hope so much to have again.
Last Friday, I reckon it was the first time I totally forgot about my DSLR. Normally I'd think for few seconds whether to bring it back to hometown. This week, it was entirely out of my mind. Although I discover a nice spot to snap paddy fields from an aerial view today, I had nothing in hand.
In September, I was thinking to get myself a new lens, but then there was something that hold me back too.
I'm really having something wrong with myself, but I don't know what is missing.
Eagerly want some extreme excitements!!! I missed those days when I just did what I want. Any chance to resume the thrills skydiving gave me?
Or when I get bold enough to explore somewhere that I've never experienced before? FYI, I never went into the sea before the Redang trip. 
A simple backpack will also satisfy me... I like to bring troubles to myself. The life sitting still at home can get me crazy.
Before I say Hanoi, I'm coming, is there any possibility for another trip? I want something new - environment, people, experience.
I'm feeling lost when I do not get lost at somewhere new.
14 comments:
possible reason
1. overworked/stressed
2. knowing u r dependence of someone/something
3. vicious circle of material life - need moolah and time to go for trip, but moolah and time is intertwined. so if free up time to tour then moolah is gone. in fact may not hav chance to free up time.
4. tiring feeling from the never-ending repetitive working life, which is backed by #1
Your last 3 photos, really showing you've conquered the Air, Under water and the Land ....
I wanna get away from my office as well. I need a break, at least one year. The thing with being too hardworking/committed to your job is that you get fed up very easily. Now I find myself getting fed up all the time. All my previous enthusiasm is gone. 烈火烧得越旺盛就越快熄灭；只有细水才是长流的。
好像塑胶拉得太紧，很快就断。
Your hobbies are REALLY REALLY awesome!
Sky diving??? I've never thought about it!
I wish I can enjoy a lil luxury of traveling, even if it's just a nearby country or even Sabah/Sarawak but money is really on a tighter side recently with other commitments, seems like I have to continue to 'daydream' haha!
sam, dunno which is the exact reason yet... i don't know a lot of things about myself.
andrew, thanks for notifying me. didn't realize that before u mentioned :)
kun, the last chinese statement can be applied on many things in life. it's so true.
yi, really?? i don't feel reluctant going to work, but not having much motivation at work. this is the only thing i can say.
hino, skydiving is not a hobby. i only did that once. it's a super-expensive hobby to be afforded.
YT, dream is good. it will come true. no dream, nothing is to be realized. just dull.
如果说旅行是你的养分，那你或许是营养不良了。出走或不，就听听你的内心。
============Update=============
I went there for a second interview today. Honestly I've no idea how things would go. I felt it would be all right, except that I felt Permanent Residency might be an issue.
They said I would be contacted by Glenn if I succeeded, so I might just ...wait... (-_-)
wow, I didn't know u tried skydiving before, that's so cool!!!!
ur a travel bug... and i think travel is yr life :) which in a way similar to me haha. so when im too long not traveling (long depends on how we describe), there is a sense of boring... haha
dun worry.. i will travel (leisure, not work) in dec.. will go to vietnam, cambodia, and step on singapore (haven't been there for 14 years) before coming back! hope it's a good trip!
ur going to singapore! wow, u first said u r not going to step into that island city. what made u change yr mind?
aiyo u remember it so well! nothing much just coz of the travel schedule, SQ redemption points, and to visit friend, also the want to travel back from SG by bus. funny eh..
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